TIRED

tonite gonna be the last nite of the wake..

past few days had been travelling between here and home.. actually many things had happen.. but i jus dunnoe wad to write..

today had my first paper.. hmm i guess it was alright.. but wun do well.. coz i'm not well prepared. den rush back for the praying session.. and tonite had to stay overnite... tml will be a busy day i think.. yup yup.. this few days smth good happened too.. cousin bonding.

i hate the moments tt i'm alone.. coz i tend to start thinking of alot alot of things..

not feeling okay at all.. hate the way i'm feeling now. feel like breaking down anytime.. but i noe i can't.. hate holding back my tears.. hate to let u see mi crying.. hate to put on a smile when i dun feel like to at all.. jus feel like crying like nobody business.. i thought i'm strong.. afterall i'm still a human..
12:03 AM


today.. one of the happiest and saddest day..

happy.. coz i finally know the ans to my qs.. nv know i was tt brave until today.. actually only wanted to find out who's the person is.. but led mi to another discovery..

sad.. jus recieved the news.. ah gong had left us.. i dunnoe how to react to the fact.. jus sat there quietly.. and i nv see daddy tt lost before.. use to have a dream.. but its impossible now.. ah gong already 97 years old le..

next few days will be at ah gong's wake.. and next week will be exam le... hope to recover soon from flu and manage my time well..

be strong!
11:47 PM


ytd went back sch.. actually helping oth with the box thingy de.. but lucky got zita's help.. coz my art cannot make it de.. den all thx to oth lor.. made mi so paiseh. coz of the vending machine.. den dinner at ljs.. reach home.. kana flu again.. remb jus recovered a few weeks ago..

today on the way home.. daddy called mi and told mi ah gong's condition very serious now.. alot of things went thru my mind.. i'm scared.. really scared..

*praying*
6:19 PM


HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUMMY!

yup yup still i manage to got her a oreo cake.. heez actually is i like.. ops.. hmm i remb got there's smth i wanna say de.. but den.. i forget le. hehe.. stm very serious.. l0ls. went out for dinner.. and yea daddy bring us to a new dinning place.. yup yup the food was nice =) den got everybody's fav, durian puff.. hoho esp mi! haha.. i seriously forget abt wad i wanna type le. haa.. shall blog again if i remb.. oya today someone really pissed mi off.. argh!!

ytd arsenal won man u.. got choco and ice cream le.. hehe.. =)
12:00 AM


booboo ~

dinner at bugis at xueshi, zita, jb, marlon, darren. shop shop shop but din buy anything.. went mos burger for dinner and sat there super long and chat.. yep we chatted abt alot alot of stuff! alot of funny memories came! haa!! and a hidden secret tt i will nv say.. den walked to citylink.. and we went amk to have supper. and zita went home. btw only the guys ate.. den i took cab home.. haa tt uncle very nice.. chatted on the way home.. l0ls..

and so sweet of xueshi to msg and make sure i reach home.. muackss! haa..

and was intro to this blog by marlon and darren.. and really amazed mi la.. haa!! interesting person lor.. haa..

yesh yesh really look forward!! genting!! =)
1:11 AM


Rainbow connection =)

Why are there so many songs about rainbows
And what's on the other side?
Rainbows are visions, but only illusions,
And rainbows have nothing to hide.
So we've been told and some choose to believe it
I know they're wrong, wait and see.
Someday we'll find it, the rainbow connection,
The lovers, the dreamers and me.

Who said that every wish would be heard and answered
When wished on the morning star?
Somebody thought of that, and someone believed it,
And look what it's done so far.
What's so amazing that keeps us stargazing
And what do we think we might see?
Someday we'll find it, the rainbow connection,
The lovers, the dreamers, and me.

All of us under its spell,
We know that it's probably magic...

... Have you been half asleep?
And have you heard voices?
I've heard them calling my name....
Is this the sweet sound that calls the young sailors?
The voice might be one and the same
I've heard it too many times to ignore it
It's something that I'm s'posed to be...
Someday we'll find it, the rainbow connection,
The lovers, the dreamers, and me.

Laa, da daa dee da daa daa,La laa la la laa dee daa doo...
4:36 PM


yea! done with my new blogskin =)

last nite conference with chelle and pk.. and guess wad.. chelle was torturing both of us can.. haa.. den pk played his guitar for us.. haa and dunnoe who suggested tt we can form a band!! wahaha.. its super funny.. yea and we chatted for 5hrs.. the best crappers la. haa!

den today lesson start at 3.. after lesson, went boonlay meet daddy mummy den we went for dinner..

it's difficult to know wad one is thinking..
11:40 AM


today purposely late for lesson.. but reach class i'm the 4th to reach.. l0ls.. and i'm late can.. haa! and ya i pass my bsbm quiz! haa. the test was taken long ago.. the nite before the test went vivo with the year threes after grad party so end up nv study at all.. l0ls and i pass la.. den went library.. chatted alot of things with zhenyan... and we were toking abt how our sis always sabo us by telling our parent stuff and they read our blogs see our photos. (if u are reading now dun be surprise tt i know kay.. ) wahaha oman love talking with her =) den had crs.. so nice of mrs mok la.. she treated us mac fries.. got 6 grps den she brought 6 pkts.. her lesson always very interesting.. today gonna be the last lesson, next week will be test.. den it was raining super heavily in sp.. but den when came back to sk it din rain at all.. haa..

exams coming~
heard tt alot of ppl choose bioinfor.. hmm not sure abut it.. den i guess they will rearrange the class again in yr2.. i seriously dun hope so la.. i hate separation.. dunwan to go into a brand new class again, dun wan to make new friends again.. and i like my present class lor. haiz.. den actually i wonder why i choose biotech.. i dun suit science i guess.. but is too late to say all this now..
8:09 PM


blogging time~

gaga.. like so long nv use this word already. haa.. yup t0day's main thing was the talk at national library. went sch for 2hrs only den went home slp! haa.. den prepare went bugis and meet dawn thay all at ard 4 plus.. shop shop, eat den went to NLB at 6.30. actually we suppose to wear formal but very little ppl wore. i din wear lor. haa.. our class simply din care so much about the formal wear thing.. and super funny.. mi and dawn wore almost the same type of top. we have been wearing the same type of clothings since monday.. haa!! kays back to NLB.. actually i'm secretly laughing at smth la.. can't stop laughing and dawn say she dun wan to stand with mi! haa!!

hmm the talk was.. din listen to it actually. haha.. but lucky the talk was only 1/2 hour.. after everything, some of our class ppl decided to go for dinner.. haa suggested vivo!! yea and we went there.. l0ls. went to carl's jr.. but mi and dawn din eat.. coz of the bk.. l0ls.. while they were eating, we went to the playground and play den walk to jen's working place.. but she was not there.. den quite a no. of ppl went off.. left mi dawn darong jerome xiangsheng ben and kenneth went to the roof top to chat abit.. den dawn left.. and left mi with the boys.. had a great chat there! toking abt, sec sch, cca, ns, driving licence.. everything under the 'stars' haa! toking abt ns.. it was only went i came to poly.. den it jus occur to mi tt.. friends will be leaving and going to ns.. its something so near mi.. in sec sch, nobody toks about ns.. coz its still a long way.. hmm.. den i guess the guys caught the last train home.. ben and xs super mean la.. ask mi take to amk den take cab home.. oyaya!! we are planning to have a class chalet =) i will train up my cycling skill de den can go nite cycling!! haaa.. i will try.. l0ls..

den today smth happen made mi and dawn so angry la!! argh.. jus so angry when we think back..

read ww's blog.. actually i'm jus so agree with it.. esp that particular para.. den i was thinking..
12:50 AM


today is all abt quizes..

dr el told us a stunning thing can.. tml must go for a talk at national library.. haiz.. in the evening somemore.. today super cold.. freezing all day.. feel super cold when nv bring jacket.. but when i bring jacket, jus nv use it..

wen must save money!! no chocolates!! argh..

its never easy.
dunnoe why, i jus felt so awkward..
11:00 PM


booboo. in library.. promise to go home study de.. but also try to study abit now..

today really din start off well la.. super duper throw face..

went in mrt, sat down.. put the volleyball on the floor.. den was playing with it and study at the same time.. den suddenly cannot feel the ball.. so was like looking ard and find where's the ball la. i looked left and right under the chair la.. den ppl sitting opp mi already looking at mi le.. finally found the ball la.. rolled to the door there.. already super paiseh, den went i wan to pick up it roll to the next cabin la. den the ppl there helped mi stop the ball but den it still roll away until theres this guy help mi pick up.. oman.. i'm super throw face can.. chasing a ball in the mrt. den went back to my seat.. already sian diao liao den use my note to cover my face lor. my super good classmate who sat opp mi din help at all!!! he jus sat there and watch the whole show and still dare to laugh!!! argh..

the ball jus gave mi alot of trouble nia.. den at FC1 din even noe it roll away.. another throw face thing was.. went library den stop at the entrance and the door din open!! like so dumb standing there den the door jus never open la.. den classmate behind laughing... wad a day man..
3:49 PM


tired tired.. pain pain..

met early in the morning at harbourfront. waited for everybody to come and went off to sentosa.. help to set up the station, den brought them to their station and went to our station palawan beach.

first grp was super fast la.. was abit unprepared when they came. l0ls. waited quite long for other grps to come.. mean while, played with sand, help tourist, take photo, see ppl having photo shooting, eat. haaa.. some grp very cute and funny la.. some hmmm... overall was okay.

best thing was today's weather!! althought was raining in the morning, but when the race start, it was sunny!! haaa.. at the same time was quite cooling too.. but got sunburn nia... pain.. haa!

after everything played frisbee and played with sea water.. i'm so dumb la. actually wanna push jiayi from the back, end up kana push by alex who is behind mi.. argh.. the big red nose..
and today after bath, the bee keep following mi!! wahaha too sweet le.. jkjk.. =p

den went hawker for dinner den home sweet home =)

and i'm so tired now.

next week, a&p apchem and biophy quiz.. %$&$* haven study yet.. jiayou nia.. haa..

mr nice nice guy =)
10:11 PM


yoo~ today only went sch for 1 hr lesson..l0ls..

help out for jam and hop, hmm turn out wasn't very ideal.. i think due to the rain.. but still i think those came enjoyed themself.. =)

was feeling bored there, but got ice cream acc me! heez.. so went off early. went vivo to find jen! went there before her work end coz wanted to buy her a belated birthday gift.. actually dunnoe wad to buy.. at last brought her a ripcurl landyard. =D after her work, went long john chat chat chat.. haa! din noe we were in a similar situation la.. but mine going to be over soon.. yep yep.

den home sweet home. and was already 12.. l0ls..

hope to work there too! =）

原来我根本就不了解你
12:47 AM


不要敷衍我。。

oman.. dawn 越来越了解我了！！ haa.. can not fool her le.. l0ls. jkjk.

o first time recieve a amulet as birthday present.. haaa.. its very nice leh.. is from jap temple de.. =)

假装快乐
10:16 PM


SENTOSA

met wanwei to go to sentosa for recee.. haa last min den find out that only we two going.. but it alright =) muhaha went ard sentosa.. o and first time i touch a real snake.. haa! and first time went to tanjong beach.. haa kays i'm noob la.. l0ls.. but was fun going with wanwei! simply enjoy all the chattings with someone i trust.. den jus realise tt next sem's yr1 no longer need to walk the long route to visit the club booth. still thou can psyco those year 1s to join the camp..

den went vivo.. went to find jen.. was only trying my luck coz dunnoe if she's working today.. haa she did la!! TWO years nv see her already.. oman miss her super much!! she's still the same, pretty, talkative and funny girl.. den was taking photos in the shop! but i wear until super anyhow la.. haa.. den hair so messy.. l0ls!! she's working at the bear shop.. so tempted to work there.. but always wanted to work at a cafe.. haa.. after exam see how ba..

today had ice blended mocha and green tea ice cream!! smiless.. heez..

anybody interested in sentosa challenge? attractive prizes to be won!!! come join now!!

hoping for the best =)
10:35 PM


oman.. tiring day.. after so many days of late wake up, today have to wake up at 6.30 nia.. tired tired.. lesson~

den actually ytd planned tt today after sch going pizza hut.. but dunnoe why they din mention anything today la.. anyway not i sugeested it.. wahah den on the way walking to mrt station, kept grumbling la.. but i did it on purpose de la.. haaa.. wanted to make some noise only, not really freak out by the rain la. haa.. two ke lian de zy have to listen.. wahaha.. i'm only joking kays =)

den went cp to meet chelle.. acc her to hg for her eye check.. l0ls.. she kept nagging and nagging la... heez.. den end up shouting at each other la. l0ls!!!! we super noisy, yep we know.. wahaha.. chelle fang xin i wun say out ur 'secret' de.. bleah~

and we saw huting at cp.. so qiao.. actually saw this girl very familiar so walked towards there to see la.. and indeed was her.. so long nv see her le lor.. and was laughing and laughing.. due to chelle lor. haa!

reach home, bath, watch tv, slp! din even wake up for dinner la..

i'm seriously missing them nia.. haiz.. seems like a long time nv go out with them le.. =( hate it to have so many things to do la..
11:05 PM


first day of sch~

k slpt at 4am.. went sch for normal lessons.. and gues wad.. i saw ek! not very sure was it him.. coz not very possible for him to be in sch le.. hmm but.. haa i still think is him la.. l0ls..

den went for flaunt it briefing.. l0ls.. got an easy job.. admin.. wahaha..

must come kays.. this friday 5.30 to 11pm free admission. =)
11:51 PM


booboo..

went for a jog just now.. heez.. hope to tired myself den later can have a good slp.. past few days really cannot slp..

glad tt ytd chatted with pk.. and he.. argh.. my phone bill sure burst de la.. next time gonna be ur turn.. and his new talent really amazed me!!! not the pk i knew la.. haa.. hope the enthusiasm will last =) wahaha..

and tml sch! wahaha sure got alot of things to talk to zhenyan. heez.. sry if we gonna be to noisy.. l0ls..
9:43 PM


sch starting soon~

no more slping in late nites

no more waking up in the noon

no more slacking..

wokeup coz of chelle's msg den met up for lunch.. and yep she made mi waited for her again.. den end up mi eating only la. but she steal my fries nia. haa.. kays and we were seriously noisy there.. laughings, arguings.. l0ls!! den came to my hse.. actually is wan to orh orh and do hw de.. but end up using comp la.. thou can stay for dinner but her dad's fetching her to somewhere so when off ard evening.. and chelle got a hidden secret l0ls!! =p bleah~ 我不乖。。。
11:29 PM


booboo. woke up at 3pm. l0ls..

den recieve call from oth and decided to go to amk with wj. mi and wj reach without late wor. but tt oth late nia. haa. act wanted to watch movie. but got limited movie at amk.. so din.. after much persuasion, we went to junction 8.. haa.. went ajisen for dinner. actually i wanted to go to cafe cartel, den oth wanted to go thai express. so we decided both also dun go.. haa.. den went up to see got any nice show.. but end up nv watch any of it.. l0ls.. but we three brought smth! haa.. three key chain.. we gonna hang it on our hps!! heez.. den it was raining heavily la.. so was thinking to take bus back to amk. but wj say the rain will stop when we reach amk. coz there's no shelter from the mrt station to the central. end up we still took train la.. and indeed the rain stop leh!! haa.. guess its jus sheer luck.. l0ls!! den went pool-ing with qing zhen and jia hui. we played number ball . using billard table.. first time playing tt.. arrh super difficult la.. the table very big.. haa.. and i'm so short.. l0ls.. and today, i'm learning to aim the ball properly before hitting it. after tt went mos burger awhile den took bus home with oth.

today is the first day of school for most of the schools.. but sp still having hols. heez.. m i still missing sec sch days? haa.. saw alot of ppl wearing uniform today, hmm how to describe my feeling.. haa i'm nt sure. =)

wad kind of person u actually are.. is tt the real you, or all along i'm jus facing a masked you. yep and got to know smth. glad tt i've made my choice. =)



our dinner~ yummy yummy!


yeaa.. our wu gui~
12:38 AM


happy birthday daddy!!

ytd went for a early celebration with my aunt. later gonna buy a cake =).

forgotten to mention in my previous entry. which is kudos to 7yrs of friendship with chelle and 5 yrs of friendship with pk!! yea!! .. heez..

actually during the last day of 2006 smth happen. until now it still bothering me. but 362 days later will i still remb? i dunnoe.. 我已经决定了。 等待那天的到来 =)

my new year resolutions!!

-be more hardworking. must chiong my studies le.
-less playful.
-lesser procrastination =p
-must prove to my parent and gain more freedom from them.
-放手
5:41 PM


0o0o~ the first day of 2007!!

ytd went to esplanade for countdown!! =)

actually meeting jb, lon, jon, xueshi and darren at 8pm. i tried to be late le!! but still the first to reach la.. den waited very very long!! arrrh. haa but nvm la. xueshi de bf join us too! den we headed to marina square for our dinner. went thai express. tt waitress said outside seat can see the fireworks, but den outside very smoky.. dunnoe why.. and gues wad tt firework was only like a few sec.. l0ls. actually tt whole nite got four times of fire works. the first three was really trial run nia.. haa.. after dinner went to buy ice cream.. den made our way to the bridge. and it was crowded with lots of ppl. the ballons on the river was really nice!! =) den decided to change place. we went to... i nt sure of tt place nia.. but tt place was FULL of ppl.. alot more times of ppl compared to the bridge. den we squeeze our way thru. half way we got separated from darren and jon. den left mi, jb, lon, xs and her bf. den end up, xs and her bf got separated from us nia.. so left we three le.. really alot alot of ppl!!! arrrh.. den alot alot of blangala.. coz there's a point where we can't move in anymore so have to stay in our position la.. den in front of mi is all blangala. waited for awhile and the fire works started!! tt was simply too beautiful!!! den half way thru got ppl try to squeeze in la.. den got pushing all this.. but felt really lucky la! coz got protected =) thx so much!! and i did a seriously ugly thing . haa but dun care so much anymore. den i'm really really short la.. i admit can. very difficult to get fresh air lor.. den ppl ard mi all like so tall de.. but i still tried my best to take alot of pics. hehe. marlon and jb was the first two i wished happy new year! after everything, tried to contact all the lost sheep. but the network was abit down, so very difficult to contact each other. but still managed to met everyone. and wished everyone happy new year!!

den we decided to go and play pool. really felt super fortunate to have jon la. coz he's driving!! den no need to squeeze to take train/bus or even cab!! his car was a 7 seater one.. so nice la.. we went to paradize centre and ssc, but both were closed. coz we reach there was already 3 i guess.. so we decied to go to changi airport. hehe.. had our hmm.. breakfast there.. haa.. den went to some part of the airport.. den started to play frequence game.. tt was fun la.. haa.. guess jon had to leave, so we left tog. he drop us at dhoby ghaut. den we waited for the first trian.. omg.. the first train was flooded with ppl la.. so got to stand for the whole trip.. reached home ard 7. bath. den slp! haa..

den the whole nite out, saw a few friends! so coincidental la.. saw quan han, jianwei, leo and ryan. l0ls..

enjoy the pics yea.. actually video too! will try to upload de.. =)














this was the ending part. the best ending man!!
2:24 PM

JIAWEN
EIGHTEEN
SINGAPORE POLY
BIOTECH
16 DEC
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