dinner-ing and blogging =)

i'm tired. i'm strong! wahhaha.

ytd chatted with chelle on phone and she said i jus dun sound like i'm 38.2ºC. l0ls. and she say she wanna go to slp and yet she keep toking and toking laa.. and is talking abt wad leh?? wahaha.. den finally can go slp. wahaha..

morning suppose to meet wj at 11 de. but woke up late! wahaha.. so i'm late. and he was late too!!! lols. went there buy some camp stuff den went sch. another one say tt i dun look sick.. l0ls. kays. reached school, went to find dom and hengthye. they ran away from the club thingy laa.. *arbish*

went back club for gm training, talked things out. but will it make a diff? see it on FO. den went to play captain ball. i sux. l0ls. but very high laa.. running ard with like no stamina laa. yesh fever must perspire.. l0ls.. cough cough cough. and we decided to order jersey for GM team. so after all the stuff, we went to queensway. and by tt time i'm already so so tired le. haha.. went down with some of the gms and seniors. after tt mi and cat went home first. and dunnoe why i'm still so sway despite i've already baibai le.. kana 'hit' by wj for 3 times!

ytd crap told mi, fever is cause by xin li bing. i find it quite true. l0ls. once xin recover, fever will also be gone! hehez.. *recovering*

happy happy, got ww de e-mail le! heez.

tired tired tired.
no more cough and fever plsss.
10:04 PM


booo =(

today din go for recee! coz having fever and mum dun let mi go.. wanted to blog ytd but to0 sick le..haiz. my temp for ytd was 39.6! everybody also stunned. but now better liao.

ytd went sch to help out for enrolment thingy. mi and jingen were there to collect forms. den they were suppose to choose at least on club. l0ls. coz tt jianming keep irritates us, so we ask them not to choose cadc. l0ls. but was jk nia.. had some 'arguing' and stuff la.. haha.. and some freshies very werid laa.. haha..

denden ytd pk told mi tt his friend found out tt we not cousin liao. i forget why in the first place we lied.. but hope she's not angry or wad ba..


booooo. pls pls recover soon!!! I HATE TO SWALLOW PILLS.. ='(
2:42 PM


yippi. ytd chatted with vincent chua! wahaha. msn first den phone. l0ls. and both of us still the same! wahaha no change!! l0ls. still equally qian da. wahahaha.. miss those times when i also bully him. ops. =x haha! and end up slpt at 4am! and have to wake up at 9am!! l0ls. but i woke up late.. woke up at 10.. and i'm super late.. coz 10.40 den took the train. guess wad. saw catherine on the train! we were both late at the same time!! some more is super late. suppose to meet at 11 de. haha.. we were late for 1/2hr. met elaine in sch.

after tt went home den went tamp to meet chelle. and i waited for her again. den went to buy tickets first.. went mos burger den went up for movie. watched mr bean. is i wan to watch and thou can have a good laugh coz we two jus need laughter.. but the show was quite boring.. before the show start we two kept toking. and somebody very er xin hor!!! omg! haha. back to the movie. only a few parts tt is quite funny.. den was feeling very sian le.. den end up chelle kept nagging and nagging la.. haha. which made us laugh and laugh. self entertain laa.. haha. booo. and we kept laugh when nobody was laughing can. denn on the way home, i'm jus sitting infront of chelle.. and she called and we chat on phone!! lols!! when i'm jus infront of her!! wahah.. but was my idea.. l0ls.. and chelle say next time wan treat mi watch movie. i really stunned lor.. wahah.. i say she got motive de den kana scold.. l0ls..

today read thru my past entries. den realise there is so many things happened within a short period of time.. and is all sad stuff. this three mths simply sux. but i'm grateful for each sad stuff happen, there will sure be someone there to listen. and i'm thankful of tt!!! =D
10:14 PM


went jogging and got freak out by tt toad.

ytd chatted with chelle til 4am plus... was feeling moody but den felt better after toking to her. coz i was scolding her.. haha.. poor chelle. but she know i dun mean wad i say de.. hehez. den she go emo-ing.. and when 2 girls start to emo tog.. its not good. l0ls.

AND DEN only until ytd den i realise becoz someone assumed tt wad i wrote in my blog was referring to him/her. and got angry with it. i noe i'm in wrong and m i tt bad to write bad things abt you when i'm in wrong? and i dunnoe which part of it cuz u to think its u. and in ur eyes i'm just tt bad and so i dun bother to explain le.

blog is just a dangerous thing. it will jus coz misunderstanding without u knowing. becoz ppl always make assumption. and yesh tt includes mi.

and now i realised wad tt means.
10:19 PM


HERO

There's a hero if you look inside your heart.
You don't have to be afraid of what you are.
There's an answer if you reach into your soul
and the sorrow that you know will melt away.
And then a hero comes along
with the strength to carry on
and you cast your fears aside
and you know you can survive.
So, when you feel like hope is gone
look inside you and be strong
and you'll finally see the truth
that a hero lies in you.
It's a long road when you face the world alone.
No one reaches out a hand for you to hold.
You can find love if you search within yourself
and the emptiness you felt will disappear.
And then a hero comes along
with the strength to carry on
and you cast your fears aside
and you know you can survive.
So, when you feel like hope is gone
look inside you and be strong
and you'll finally see the trutht
hat a hero lies in you.
Lord knows dreams are hard to follow,
But don't let anyone tear them away.
Hold on, there will be tommorow.
In time you'll find the way.
And then a hero comes along
with the strength to carry on
and you cast your fears aside
and you know you can survive.
So, when you feel like hope is gone
look inside you and be strong
and you'll finally see the truth
that a hero lies in you.
That a hero lies in you,that a hero lies in you.
1:07 AM


booboo

gametrial for past 2 days. nth to say.

but there's smth which really brighten up my tt very short moment. l0ls. which is during the outdoor game.. me and catherine walked past this grp of primary sch kids.. they having some activity.. and they requested us to watch their performance.. it was the pong slope clap i learn during ICE!! haha.. they are so so so cute!!! den after tt they wan us to do together!! haha.. yea. they taught us and i learn fast! coz i already know tt clap.. haha.. i'm jus so happy.. but only for tt short short moment..

break camp den headed to mrt station.. so qiao la! saw the 3As! l0ls.. audrey, alex and alvin.. chatted with them awhile den decided to have dinner together.. on the way saw vincent and bingyi too! haha.. i jus super messy la.. haha.. had our dinner, den chatted again. haha.. after tt we went to other plce to continue our chats.. den mi went home with catherine.

home sweet home. its a bless to meet them.. coz really make us feel so much better le.. =)

i always use my feelings to judge things. and i'm super impulsive la.. haha.. den i realise tt issit wad i really felt.. l0ls!! stupid stupid mi!! haha..

and my knee still hurts la.. sian..
12:28 AM


lala.

today went sch for food and heritage meeting.. was a short one.. den went T11A. waited for super duper long for tt invoice.. l0ls. but got catherine pei mi chat. den send her to mrt station.. i got alot of time laa. den wet club.. paint a bit of the banner and went off to mrt station to wait for dummy la.. thx la.. owe 45mins le.. l0ls!! made mi wait again.. argh.

den went bugis.. nv get anything la.. so decided to go orchard de fleshimp! dummy indeed dummy.. l0ls.. haha lucky got one shirt.. if not wack ppl le.. haha! wanted to walk to somerset mrt station.. and walk wrong direction!!! must be some ppl dai sai lor.. haha.. den home for dinner! =)

SINGAPORE FOOD AND HERITAGE TOUR 2007!!

20 may 2007
form grps of 2-6 members per team
attractive prizes to be won!!!

open up to everyone!! including the public!!

9:59 PM


ytd lobster and crap were talking and they were doing this quiz. the results were super funny la..

l0bster (me)
You Are 40% Boyish and 60% Girlish
You are pretty evenly split down the middle - a total eunuch.
Okay, kidding about the eunuch part. But you do get along with both sexes.
You reject traditional gender roles. However, you don't actively fight them.
You're just you. You don't try to be what people expect you to be.

crap (my junior)
You Are 60% Boyish and 40% Girlish
You are pretty evenly split down the middle - a total eunuch.
Okay, kidding about the eunuch part. But you do get along with both sexes.
You reject traditional gender roles. However, you don't actively fight them.
You're just you. You don't try to be what people expect you to be.

k and we were like laughing like hell.. haha. so qiao laa.. l0ls!!! did alot other quiz too. mine was accurate! his was so funny!! wahaha.

my phone suffered from internal injuries. sob sob.. old le old le. 30yrs old liao.. haha..

today went sch, help out for the nite walk thingy.. l0ls.. did dummy.. catherine is the master of making dummy!! l0ls.. she did 80% of it i guess. haha!!
9:53 PM


booboo

this two days had been good girl wor. haha.. clean up the whole hse, and most impt i packed my room!!! wahahaah!!!

today so sad.. went jogging alone! but got improvement! wahaha!! coz chelle having exams so can't run.. and i'm sick of eating packet food le. sob sob.. i hate to think of wad to eat nia..

and today put up a new song.. is by tang yu zhe! haha..
10:50 PM


today woke up super early!!

woke up at 8! coz of someboy's msg laa.. this time dunnoe why can't get back to slp.. so decided to wake chelle up to study. hehez. and she swear she will scold the person who woke mi and coz caused her to wake up too! (and she did!) haha.. den we continue with our chatting and she decided to go to sp with mi.. and i waited for her to prepare til i wanna fall back slp. finally meet.. she so noisy laa.. say i late.. den make mi so ji tong.. den the person infront of mi turn back and looked at mi.. -_-!!! kays.. den went for lunch and travel to sp. and we started our part 1 sabo-ing story. oyaya! we saw a ke yi wu jian in the train.. and nobody bother abt it man..

reach sp waited for them to finish lunch den went sport hall to play badminton.. chelle suppose to go library study de lor. den end up playing badminton too! ask her go study den say wan play! qi si wo.. waa sweat alot alot laa.. super good la. den decided to go for a run at the stadium.. heez. run til leg super suan.. den have to rest and do stretching before moving on.. and i bathed before leaving sch!! and i kept saying i smell nice til the rest got super irritated by me.. heez =p.. den chelle and mi decided to leave first.. but end up all of us leaving tog.. and they decided to go sk!! lols!!! got xueshi, chunmei, jingbin, marlon and darren. reached sk den chelle went home first.. the rest went for dinner. i went too but din eat. coz mummy bought food for mi le.. after dinner went for chit chat session.. l0ls. somehow dunnoe why wad i said like not very jiawen de gan jue.. hmm i also dunnoe why!

oo today got a phone call!! i so happy!! haha. lucky i called back.. coz was missed call from a unknown no. (normally i dun call back) praying for good news!!! sway-ness pls pls pls go away!!

to you: i'm not angry le. aiya got chance den tell u why i reacted tt way..
12:28 AM


jus follow law =D

met at bishan. and both were late.. but i still reach first! haha.. bought the tickets and went ajisen for dinner! hehez.. and realised actually a fan can make mi laugh and laugh la.. haha.. den some REALLY embarrassing things happen.. haha.. dunnoe who made those chopsticks and stuff drop lor.. haha.. but was a funny meal la.. haha.. den went ntuc. heez.. and yaa jus walked ard aimlessly. haha.. den went up for movie. we watched just follow law!! tt movie was really a super duper funny one!! kept laughing laa.. and everyone did i guess. haha.. after show had to go home.. coz was already 11.45 le..must catch the last bus.. den on the way chatted with chelle.. yea she acc mi thru out the journey.. and there is alot of movies i wan to watch! haha..

thx for the chocolate! =)

and recently i jus feel tt i'm super sway!! sway-ness faster go away..!!
1:09 AM


.yesterday.

woke earlier den usual wor. hehez. den they decided not to go cycling coz very few ppl going. so nvm lor. we went town instead. =) met at ps. me, dawn, darong and ben. and all of them own mi 1/2 hr la! haha.. wanted to watch moive.. but can't decide wad to watch so we went shopping instead. we walked to orchard. hmm was kind of weird la.. the two guys having their own chat den me and dawn having our own chat too.. so was like. hmm.. haha.. but they tried to include us in i guess. heez. but too long nv see dawn le.. so many things to talk abt. haha.. shop shop shop. oyaa. actually i suggested taking neoprint.. but the guys din reject la. but they say was kind of weird. haha so we din lor.. and we took super long time to decide where to have our dinner lor. haha.. and i found out ar. we always standing in the middle of the road de lor.. haha..

and finally we decided pepper lunch for dinner =) on the way dawn said smth really make mi laugh til cannot stop la. heez.. yea my first time there. haha.. den finally had our chat tog le! talked abt alot alot of random stuff.. but i think i talked the most le.. haha.. we sat there quite long.. den went for ice cream.. heez.. and find place to sit down to continue chatting.. and it seems tt the taking down of the temp shelter is more interesting den wad i talk la!! argh..

denn after home sweet home while ben went to meet his friends. going home is so scary la.. coz must walk thru a dark, quiet and nobody de road! worse is.. ytd suddenly got a dog dash out from nowhere la.. den was infront and so near me!!!! xia si le la.. also dunnoe wad the dog wan.. den wait for the dog to walk away la. and is a super big dog. den when he walk away still turn back and look.. and i walked super fast home la!!!! haha.. and super tired le. i slpt early wor!! haah..

.today.

all thx to my dearest chelle lor. msg mi wan watch movie ma. den i dunwan reply her. coz i slping.. den she called and waked mi up la!!! but mummy also very good. say good to have ppl disturb and wake mi up... qi si wo le. chelle and mummy lang bei wei jian lor.. den no choice la. woke up and went tamp to me chelle.. end up nv watch movie laa.. went for lunch at ljs.. den chelle want to cut hair but dunnoe where.. so was like thinking and thinking la.. and i decided to cut too! heez. so went rm for hair cut! haha.. den walked to her hse for her to change den walked to my hse for mi to change. the journey to my hse was so tiring la... cuz we were nv quiet for a min la.. and she very irritating la.. keep saying some 'words' and make mi nearly fight with her on the street can.. and she did smth really ugly.

den went jogging ard my hse area. wahaa gd to have a running partner.. heez.. den den went for desert. heez. and home sweet home. den played a game before we went off.. but i cheated.. haha! i din keep my promise.. sry nia. haha.. chelle next time i will de.. haha..

tired tired.. haha.. chelle jiayou le!!! =)
8:51 PM


so tired! haha

wad can u do with 1 dollar? for 2 person i mean..

met up with chelle today! went jogging ard my hse area here.. we started off tog and split up after tt.. and tt place super big la.. den guess wad we can't find each other lor.. so we manage to find each other after mi going 3 rds of tt big big place la.. haha.. act thou off going a diff direction so will meet her on the way, lucky i din la..coz she did tt!! haha.. and by den we were so tired le.. so walk another rd to cool down.. this girl ar.. nv bring money de lor.. and i brought 1 dollar only!! haha.. so we were thinking of wad we can buy with tt 1 dollar and 2 shares. haha.. suggest goin to my hse and take money.. but dunnoe why we din and we decided to go to cp to see with theres anything we can buy.. and also! to see anyone we know de.. hehe.. yesh to borrow money.. we super lang bei can.. den walk ard cp to try our luck lor.. and we were like thinking.. why we dun wan to go home.. and also why in the first place dunwan go my hse take money. argh.. and we finally decided to go my hse take money!!! we also dunnoe wad we thinking in the first place.. l0ls..

haiyo.. we super tired le lor.. reach my hse.. den mummy wan mi finish the rice first.. so share with chelle.. part of our dinner. hehe.. den we both super xiang eat desert lor.. and freak.. we both super xiang eat carrot cake!! haha we really freak out la. haa!! but super sad lor.. read on yea.. haha.. actually 9.30 le.. but we still went back to cp to buy desert.. haiz.. but they closing le.. not selling anymore.. den nvm lor.. walk to the 24hr coffee shop.. freaking far la.. is so far and we were already dying le.. sob.. FINALLY reach le.. but den cannot find the carrot cake shop.. walao.. den call pk and ask him and he say have but dunnoe which shop.. end up.. NV GOT TO EAT CARROT CAKE TOO!! den chelle say i dai sai.. waa.. but still had our simple simple dinner. l0ls.. we so sad and noisy la. coz cannot eat the things we super xiang eat de.. den make alot of noise.. ppl beside us looked at us and so paiseh nia!!

i alway enjoy heart to heart talk with chelle.. but i thou for certain things i wun say.. but i still did.. haha..

got to know some stuff too.. hmm shld i ask? haha i guess i will..

hmm dunnoe why.. recently becoming more paranoid and emotional..

tml cycling with classmates!! yay!! finally can meet dawn le!! wahaha.. and i got a feeling i will fall down! heez..
11:58 AM


boo!

bball-ing today..

i hate to be punctual lor.. argh! meeting at 6 de.. and i already purposly take my own sweet time le.. who knows when i go to the bus stop the bus arrive. nvm.. and i reach on time.. and i'm the only who reach lor.!!! dunnoe how many time le.. sob sob.. and our organiser was late for 1 and 1/2 hrs!!!!!!! thx ar.. oya today played with xueshi, chunmei, darren, marlon and jb. played at hg area..

at first quite low.. but after tt was okay.. dunnoe wads my prob lor.. everytime play sure got injuries de.. first ball hit my cheek den my forehead den i fell down. play for abt 2hrs? yea den went for supper.. l0ls.. and so nice of to jon drove us home!! hehez.. and hardly for mi to be the first few to reach home lor.. haha..

results are out, sch posting for o level students are out too. the cop for biotech is 14! last yr i think is 12.. den to my surprise.. dopt become 12 wor.. thou is the best course in sp .. but nah. is biomed 10pts. haha i know not my business la.. but i'm jus curious ma.. heez.. hehe got to know some juniors got into sp!! hehe.. so excited to intro them sp stuff. hehe..

once again, i'm confused..
12:48 AM


TIRED!

haha.. i'm so tired nia.. ytd slpt at 5am lor. den woke up at 6.30am.. and i overslpt actually.. den chiong out reach sch on the the dot la.. and guess wad? i'm still early.. still have to wait for other GMs... sobsob.. our grp very zai de lor.. coz only got 5 ppl l0ls!! GMs very ke lian de lor.. coz have to wait for very long.. but den we started to talk abt lame jokes and stuff la.. heez.. den den finally to our station. i very ke lian lor.. kana torture by seniors.. drag on the the floor by them den water gun aiming at me!! very ke lian rite! den all other GMs watching show and nv help mi.... sadded.. but is becoz i threw his slipper from the second floor to the first level.. hehe.. den shoot water at them also.. haha.. fair enuff . l0ls.. oya before tt. we were preparing our forfeit drinks. added raw egg into the coke.. den the coke start flowing out laa.. and i'm a big noob! haha.. coz they threw in two mentos den i still stand there and see when everybody start to get away from it le.!! coz mentos will cause the coke to produce alot of gas den will have the thingy flowing out.. which coz a 'fountain'. and i dunnoe la!!! got laugh by them.. -_-!!!

kays finally the GLs were here. the game was abit messy.. but forfeit was fun!! poor mark!! haha.. seniors put the egg inside his * den smack the egg.. den.. haha!! was super funny.. second rd of games was okay.. o they were great at passing mentos thru mouth! haha!! very li hai! after tt can start to pack up le.. den played basketball for awhile only.. but was fun la! haha.. and was so tired, after debrief went home!!

kevin is a very good GM head lor.. he got lots of ideas la!!!!! hahaha!!

and my chelle change the blogger thingy to the google version!!!! arbish* (i dunwan de)

i'm useless
10:26 PM


boo.

ytd.
went sch return stuff. den chat with xs in msn. and tok abt ai mei. haha i hate ai mei guan xi. l0ls.. den chatted with chelle on phone.. but she sound super tired.. haha.. den call pk.. wanted a conference. but chelle fall aslp. so left mi and pk nia.. haha super duper long nv chat with him le i think. heez.. hmm he say.. i'm still the same.. still so weird.. haaa. haha he also the same lor.. long time nv hear him play guitar liao.. l0ls.. den chat until 5.30 am! haha.. no stress toking to him.. can crap wadever i wan.. l0ls.

today.
wanted to meet chelle for lunch, but end up both having lunch at home.. den nite daddy went out. mummy, sista and mi went sakae for dinner=) very full! haha.. den went ntuc. l0ls. took wadever i wan.. hehe.. miss shopping ntuc with dummy. sista want to buy tt 2L of milk lor.. so she have to carry it herself.. haha..

love ww mummy!! haha. fang xin and enjoy ur days in thailand kays. everybody will be okay de! =)

i thou i'm happy.. but the feeling of happiness is not there. i dunnoe wads the prob.
there's smth i wan to say, but i'm jus so unsure..
2:13 AM


maybe everything has come to an end..

been hearing so many many things, which makes mi so unsure of everything. no longer know wads the truth, i guess everyone is trying to protect themselves hur.. seriously dunnoe why i will end up in this situation.. but let this be a lesson for mi yea. maybe without this i wun know so many things, and yesh this also let mi realised alot of things and caused some changes in my thinking.

and thx dummy for ur ears and concerns =)
and wj for for advise =)

follow my feelings!

althought i dunnow wads correct and wrong, jus follow wad my heart tell mi yea. i dunwan to be a wang en fu yi de ren.

and greater bond in our friendship =)

backstabbers all ard.. i dunwan to be as naive as before. time to grow up.
10:13 PM


why is more things happening again when i'm already recovering.. i dunnoe for wad reason it hurts so much. and i cried so hard. i dunnoe i dunnoe i really dunnoe. i seriously hate it. i hate reading those things again and tears flow down again. i hate to know more stuff again. i hate myself, why in the first place attempt to trust ppl and end up getting hurt again. SHLD I JUST SHUT MYSELF FROM EVERYONE AND THINGS WILL BE FINE?

i'm tired.. seriously tired.. its all my fault. i'm stupid. i'm bad. i'm evil. i sux kays. from the start issit rite. i'm tired of thinking can i trust this person. i'm tired of thinking wads another person thinking. why is everyone so fake. is everyone tryingg to protect themselves and causing hurt to other ppl? AND SHLD I BE AS FAKE TOO?

I HATE MYSELF FOR BEING SO UNSURE. HATE MYSELF FOR BEING SO STUPID.

being u or them. i dunnoe.

dun ask me anything. i'm sick of everything.

leave me alone.
12:02 AM

JIAWEN
EIGHTEEN
SINGAPORE POLY
BIOTECH
16 DEC
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